Do you see this? In just this last month or so I started to notice small, deep lines creasing from the corners of my eyes. I believe we call them crows feet. Sigh.I got my first gray hair at 19, and I'm pretty much a bottle brunette now--and that has never phased me. But when I spotted real life wrinkles on my face, I did a double-take.
Woah.
I guess I really AM going to start looking old one of these days. Me? Yes, me. It will happen.
Andrew asked on my 33rd birthday (two weeks ago) how I feel about getting older. And I told him the truth. That all in all, I don't mind it a bit. In many ways it makes me really happy. I love to see progress in my life and every year I've gotten better (on the inside at least!).
Even my darned health problems have put a lot of things in perspective and chipped away at an entitlement attitude I've lived with a lot of my life. I didn't see that three years ago.
Every year brings change and directed by God, it is change for good. Even if it has been a rough year. I love that. I want to be a vibrant, confident woman who is unafraid to live from her heart and who loves God and people generously. But it takes time. It takes work. It takes aging. Especially for a natural scardey-cat like me.
So the getting older thing is good...the looking older thing, not so much. But I guess it comes with the territory. I just hope that I'm always becoming more beautiful from the inside. And that the lines on my face are greatly surpassed by the beauty of my spirit. No matter what age I am.
I LOVE this post. I actually commented yesterday, but I guess it didn't stick!! Thanks for being a great friend and I do have to say that you are a BEAUTIFUL PERSON. Over the years that I have known you, you have grown so much and it has only made you more beautiful, honestly! I have often thought of you and all I could say was, "That girl!" in the best way possible. Your life, your story, and the grace that you have gained in all of this amazes me. Your beauty within makes the outside all the more stunning. You've got both! Thanks for being a great friend and being willing to be transparent as God has worked through you in ways that weren't exactly soft and fluffy. I truly have been priviledged to watch your story unfold. Thank you. LOVE YOU.
ReplyDeleteKatie,
ReplyDeleteThat is such a kind, wonderful tribute. Thank you so much. I'm glad I have it here so I can reread as needed :)